aJ Poetry

2011-02-06T19:30:00.001+08:00

The sun rises
The moon disappears
Without saying goodbye

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Had About Enough

2010-12-08T11:09:00.001+08:00

Had About Enough

I cannot believe
When you said you wanted to leave
Our time spent was so brief
No longer than the sigh I heaved

In my mind it was all a bluff
When you said you've had enough
I know what we went through was rough
I also know that we're that tough

Might I remind you
Of the SMS I sent you
Months ago when you said you're leaving too
That I'd fight for our love and I'd fight for you

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2009-11-04T01:48:00.001+08:00

You & I

You and I
Will never die
As long as we have each other

You and I
We'll not just fly
We'll soar up high
Into the sky

You and I
We will go on and on
No matter what
People say or do

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now

2009-10-30T02:58:00.003+08:00

There is nothing else that means the world to me
Then my lovely darling wife-to-be
I would do anything for her
I would go to the furthest star and back
I will do my bestest to make her happy
I will make her feel better when she's sad

Though there are people with ill intentions
Those who want this relationship to fail
Those who are jealous
But I care not
She cares not
We care not

Because only God has the power to do that

Poetry from God

2009-08-02T10:53:00.001+08:00

Poetry from God

No matter how hard I try to write more poetry,
The more empty and hollow my words turn out to be.
It feels like my previous poems were written to God.
Writing about a person I couldn't see.
Then He replied
with a poetry far more beautiful
than any poem I've ever written, combined.
He gave me you.

2008-10-07T22:19:00.001+08:00

I gave you my soul
Hugged you when you were cold
Held you in my arms
As I bask in your charms
Then I look into your eyes
Never realising how fast time flies
In my life I've never been happier
Everyday you make me grin from ear to ear

I still remember how I teased you
How tender your lips were when I kissed you
I remember how everything started suddenly
And sadly, it all ended abruptly

You have made your choice
One that will never make me rejoice
We've said our goodbyes
I'm reminiscing with tears lining my eyes
I hope our paths will cross again
Till then the memories of you will remain

2008-09-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

Diamonds In The Sky

Your eyes
They're like diamonds in the sky
Like stars shining bright
Gleaming in the night

I could just watch and gaze
Stare on and be amazed
And get lost and dreamy
As you smile at me

The moon will be lonely when you sleep
It'll cry with you if you weep

I wish I have your eyes in a case
But it won't be the same without your face
It feels like a two-hit combo
If you smile at me like so =)

2008-07-18T04:37:00.000+08:00

She

The way her eyes light up when she saw him
The way she talks excitedly to him
The same eyes he saw crying
The same voice that was sobbing
He remembers the smell of her hair
That has always lingered in the air
He dreams of her lips he might never kiss
He dreams of her; someone he'd forever miss

2008-06-04T16:59:00.002+08:00

Round and Round

The player changes
But the story remains the same
Like a wheel with spikes
A vicious cycle
Always repeating
Neverending
It spins forever
Stop it will never
But it's only the 3rd revolution
Wonder when it'll stop it's motion

I'll see you soon.

2008-05-26T08:11:00.002+08:00

Song of You

We've only met once before
but that meeting left me wanting more
I did not realise it till later
But they said it's better to be late than never.

I don't know why
But no matter how hard I try
To put other songs in my head
Your song starts up instead.

I keep singing the song of you
Hoping the lyrics to be true
Maybe, for you, I'll write a new song
Of which I hope it won't take too long

Initially I didn't realise it
During the first time that we meet
But now things are a-changing
For you, these words I'm arranging

Maybe I'll see you soon
Like in the evening when I see the moon
I want to gaze at the stars with you
You and me, spending an evening or two =)

2008-05-11T04:28:00.000+08:00

I Wonder

Someone once told me
To be what I want to be
To love who I want to love
To ignore the signs in the stars above

She said “You create your own destiny
If things don't go right, don't be too whiny
Do not be afraid to try
Do not be afraid to cry.”

And so I told her this
“I am attracted to a pretty miss
But I'm too shy to ask her out
Because it might make me look like a lout.”

And then she slapped me with her right hand
And screamed “Which part do you not understand?”

Here I am writing this whole lot
Still wondering should I ask or not.

2008-04-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

Johanna?

From the movie/musical Sweeney Todd: Demon Barber of Fleet Street

Wanted to share these few lines:

And if I never hear your voice,
My turtledove, my dear,
I still have reason to rejoice:
The way ahead is clear.

And though I'll think of you, I guess, until the day I die,
I think I miss you less and less as every day goes by...

2008-03-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

Pining For The Moon

I pine for the moon
Everyday, every afternoon
It comes every night
Shining so bright
When morn comes, it goes
Just as we were getting close
It goes away, again and again
Leaving my heart tattered and in pain
Someone once said, “Why don't you pick a star?”
And I said, “They're too far
But at times they do beckon me to come
Not all, but some.
So, foolish me went all the way there
Only to find that they're missing, nowhere.”
I pine only for the moon
But I can't get to it anytime soon.
Probably never ever will
But in my heart, forever remain, it will

*Even if the moon is nearer than the stars
It will still remain just out of my reach

2008-02-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

Not So Random

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2008-02-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

There's Something About...

It's hard to take you off my mind
But I don't think of you all the time
I try to forget you
Something I've always failed to do
I've tried stopping you entering my head
But I realised it'll only happen when I'm dead
You'll never know how much you mean to me
You're the best that there'll ever be

When I see you in my dreams
I ask myself what it means
Why do you keep appearing
Without even announcing
Pasting your pretty face
All over my place
All over my mind's recesses
And crevasses

Tell me why this feeling can't be stopped
Neither will I let it drop
There's something about you, dammit!
And I love it.

2008-01-20T23:49:00.001+08:00

Love you still
I really do
I didn't mean
To do those things to you
We had to part
Cause I need to start
Anew
To do it right
To set my mind
To be ready
For you again
Even if you won't
Forgive me
I know I deserve it
And I expect
Nothing better
I know that you wait for me
I suggest you don't
Let yourself free at the moment
And we'll start again
When the time is set
When the time is right.

2008-01-05T04:11:00.000+08:00

Eternal conflicts
Forever damning
It is never ever comforting
Feelings run amok
Emotions run high
Anger
Sadness
Confusion
All of it in profusion
Destruction
Eternal damnation without relief
Eternal conflicts
Of the heart
Of the mind

2008-01-05T04:10:00.001+08:00

Here is everywhere
Yet here is nowhere
Here is the centre of the world
For if you walk round the earth
It is the same distance
If you walked the other way

2008-01-05T04:08:00.000+08:00

Walking around in circles
Turning too many corners
Where do we all end up??
The same place we were before.

2008-01-03T21:17:00.001+08:00

Let me share with you guys a poem.
It's not by me.
I don't know who is it by.

"The Irony of Love" - Anonymous

The greatest irony of love:
Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life...
And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,
But when you see them smile at you,
You'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending
To be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that
They will never be yours again...
Most relationships tend to fail not because of
The absence of love. Love is always present.
It's just that one was being loved too much and the
Other was being loved too little...
As we all know that the heart is the center of the body
But it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason
Why the heart is not always right...
Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love
Only to discover that for them,
We are just past times, while the one who truly
Loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...
So here's a piece of advice:
Let go when you're hurting too much.
Give up when love isn't enough
And move on when things are not like before...
For sure, there is someone out there
Who will love you even more..."

Loving the right person at the FUCKING WRONG time!

2007-10-08T23:50:00.001+08:00

Rainy Days And Mondays

It has been raining all day
I wish you're here with me so we could play
Maybe we could just lie down
Or maybe frolic around
Lying in each other's arms
Keeping each other from harm
Apologies are not required
It is you I've always desired
Cherished you with all my life
Hoping to make you my wife
Someday I hope it will come true
The one I love, that's you

2007-09-24T15:22:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of new poems.

I won't be adding more until March 2008.

You can read my archives.
They're interesting!

If you like them... leave a tag.
If you don't, leave a tag too!

Cheerios!

2007-06-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

To

To think about you
To dream about you all the time
To live with you all my life
To love you forever
To care for you till the end
To caress you enlessly
To please you
To hold you in my arms
To not let go
To stroke your hair softly
To look at you with loving eyes
To do anything
And everything

All for you

2007-04-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Salty Fries

Oh why are these fries so salty?
They taste like me when I'm sweaty

They can give you high blood pressure
And believe me, that's not a pleasure

So cut down your intake
It's your life here that's at stake

No more sodium chloride
Unless you wanna get a ride
In a hearse
And it gets worse

Your heart is under so much tension
You'd probably not enjoy your pension

So no more sodium chloride
It is the choice to make alright

2007-04-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

Jostling Battle

Move over, you've met your match
And now your seat I'm gonna snatch
You were too weak you were too frail
To win this contest, you have failed

I jumped at the opportunity
I never ever cared for sympathy
What I'm concerned about
Is I've got a seat, oh yes I'm proud!

It's too bad that you have to stand
But this you must understand
If it wasn't you who is standing
It would be me instead, weeping

Lightning reflexes, I have
You must grasp the moment and do the math
I've quicken my pace
Seeing the competition that I face

This battle, I have won
You can try again next time, young one
Now rest in peace let me
And sit with ease in the MRT

2007-04-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

Literati

Come celebrate the power of meaningful words at Literati!!! A showcase of poetry, prose and music delivered by talented local writers, storytellers and musicians. Featuring Jocelyn Chua, Dew Chaiyanara, Marc Nair, Azmi Danuri, Lee Yue Heng, and Jacklyn Soo of The Mad Hatter’s Tea Party. Also with special guest, Sharanya Manivannan (KL).
More info @ http://www.platformthelabel.blogspot.com/

Yup folks! I'm in it!

2007-03-30T01:05:00.000+08:00

Channel Surfing

"Good Morning Singapore"
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
Click
And then it fades to black
Read the guide, time to slack
It's a Sunday, so what the heck.

Click!

2007-03-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Can't Hear A Single Thing (What Are You Saying?)

Your lips are moving
But there was no voice
I know I'm listening
But there's too much noise

Whenever you mumble
All your words are jumbled
I cannot make out a thing
Of what you are saying

I'm no lip reader
I need my ears to hear
But every word you speak
Somehow made me tick

Tap on my shoulder
I don't care, whatever
Pull off my earphones
Only then I can hear your tones

2007-03-14T00:38:00.001+08:00

It Will Be Fun

I've been living the past few months with you in my head
I keep thinking about you when I'm lying on my bed
Our paths crossed and it's all because of fate
To live with you forever I can't wait

You could wear that dress
And rest
Against my chest
That would be best

Then we would walk
We would talk
Each other we will tease
And do as we please

The smile on your face
With another I cannot replace
The kisses that you give
From another I won't receive

You are my light
Shining ever so bright
You are my flame, my candlelight
That will guide me all through the night

My life was never the same
The moment my heart you tamed
I know this is not a game
But we will have fun just the same

Have fun we will do
Baby, just me and you

2007-02-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

You Are Worth My While

Everything I do for you will be my very bestest
Because I feel that you, my girl, are absolutely the hottest
There is nothing I won't do
For you, my boo

Everytime I tell you that I love you, it is the truth
Baby, just ask me if you really want some proof
I'll show it to you
That I really love you

So dear, if you ever have any insecurities
Why don't you speak your mind and talk to me
I will assure you
That I am true

So please don't go before our time is over
I'd do anything to make the clock go slower
So there'd be more time
For you to be mine

I love you so so
Don't go
Hello
Goodbye, no

So smile
You make it all worthwhile

2007-02-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

Promise

You're my favourite girl
In all of this world
You are more dear to me than gold
Your hands forever I will want to hold
For you, I will sell my soul

I will do anything for you
Even die if I have to

You are the sweetest thing I found since whenever
I want to stay with you forever
Leave you I will never

You bring a smile to my face
You lift me up to high places
There's never been such a case
Before I met you, and now I'm in a daze

I am sad no more
Cause your ship has landed on my shore
Let me lead you to the dancefloor
And we'll let the emotions pour
We will go
With the flow
See where the tide takes us
Promise we won't make a fuss
Promise we will make it last

2007-02-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

Future Bound

You are the sweetest thing I found
Your voiceis the nicest of all sounds
The way you smile, the way you laugh, the way you cry, the way you frown
I know you will never let me down
I know you will still be around
Even after the leaves turn brown
I'm sure our love is future bound

2007-02-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

There Is No Other

Everytime I look into your eyes
There is nothing I can do but sigh
The kiss that you give makes me high
That is one thing I cannot lie

I fall in love with you
Everyday, there is no other but you
For you my love is true
I know that you love me too

I'll stick to you like glue
You don't have a clue
As to how much I love you

If you get a penny
For everytime I call you honey
You would be the richest girl
In the whole wide world

If she is that wealthy
It will mean that my love for her is healthy
And I am fit for her
For me there is no other.

2007-01-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

Because You're Mine

You're mine
Yes you're mine alone
Girl you're so fine
And I can tell even through the telephone

I waited for quite some time
Just for you, I wouldn't go
I loved you till it almost became a crime
And I'm glad that I told you so

At first I thought it was an infatuation
Then it turned out to be a serious situation
And I think it's because of divine intervention

I dropped everything and hesitated no more
And I didn't think waiting for you was a chore
And now you''re mine

You are the one that I adore
I will love you forever more

Now you make me so happy
And fill my heart with love
Smelling your hair all these while makes me groggy
And your hand fits mine like a glove

I wouldn't let you go
Even if I'm forced to
From strength to strength together we will grow
And every obstacle we'll make it through
Because you're mine

2007-01-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Don’t Worry

My dear do not worry
With me forever you will be
For I wouldn’t want to see you go
And if you do, I’d feel very low

My love, I wouldn’t leave
Even after my last breath I breathe
I’ll hold you in my arms
So darling there is no need for alarms

And I love you
I know that you love me too

So throw away your insecurities
I’m here to stay
I won’t go away

2007-01-12T17:20:00.000+08:00

I'll Be Back Again

So cold the weather is today
And I'm going someplace far away
There'll be nobody to keep you warm
Nobody to hug you and keep you safe from harm

I'm gonna miss you
It's not like I never do
But this will be something more
Then never before

But do not worry, my girl
It is not the end of the world
It won't be long before I return
And hug and kiss you the way you yearn

2007-01-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

The Truth

It’s true
That I’m so in love with you
And I know that you know it too

Everytime I see your face
It is you I want to embrace
The memory I cannot erase
You I can never replace

I still remember the chase
Though it wasn’t a race
You were ahead in space
And I always kept pace

I miss you when I’m a minute away
Can you imagine if it was a day?
I would feel hollow
But it is not sorrow
Cos you will be there
And I don’t have to search everywhere

Tell me you will stay forever
For leave you I will never

2006-12-30T09:03:00.000+08:00

Note to Self

A new year a new beginning
But my new beginning has long begun
That’s why you hear me singing
And having fun under the sun
Do not fear what the future brings
Just shoot any problems down with a heavy machine gun

Do not give in to anger
Be sensitive to the feelings of your lover
If you don’t you’d be a goner
It’ll be over sooner or later

It’s really not the money
That excites your little honey
It’s how you could be so funny
And make the wettest day sunny

She’ll love you no matter what
Even when you’re both far apart
So it’s time to get smart
And don’t let yourself depart
From the station that is her heart
Or it’s gonna be hard to press restart

So do remember
What happened in December
When it all begins
How it all fits in

With the stars shining bright
Walking under the cloudless sky
I hope the flame that was lighted that night
Will never die

2006-12-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

The Journey We Take

Oh baby don’t you start
If you think of breaking my heart
Cause I will cry
As I lie
On my bed
Screaming off my head

The sight of you
Makes me go blind
The things I’d do
To make you mine

Thinking of you so beautiful
Makes me go smiling like a fool

You enrich my memory
By saying yes to be with me
Together we will be
Till the end I foresee

I’ll bring you happiness
To cast away the loneliness
And I will embrace your loveliness
We will feel like winners

Together we will embark on this journey
We will embrace destiny
You and me…

2006-12-13T01:07:00.001+08:00

Hurry Scurry, Don’t Worry

Stop
My heart pleads so don’t go
Wait
I think there’s something you should know

You’re the one that got me going again
You lifted me out from despair and pain
You gave me hope and I rejoiced
And now you are my first choice

Listen clearly to what I’m gonna say
Baby this is not a game that we play
And it does not matter if I lose or win
All I want to see is you smilin’

I want to lie with you under the stars
On the ground illuminated by passing cars
Where we can share our dreams
And our love that flow like streams

Don’t you know that you are the girl
To me there’s no other in this world
Oh darling don’t you see
That you are my ultimate fantasy

I’m still standing at the station
Feeling alot of exhilaration
I was a little too late
And now I have to wait

For the girl
That meant the world
To me
Can’t you see?

As I sense the moment approaching
It excites me and I started singing
Her favourite song
I know it won’t be long

I will love her
Like no other
So don’t worry
I won’t flee
So hurry

2006-12-08T19:33:00.001+08:00

We Shall Do This Together

You forgot that I’m just a poet or a writer
Who just wants to be your soldier
Who would stay with you forever
The one who would be your lover

So I hope you would remember
Even if you died a thousand times over
Remember the guy who would never
Switch you for another

I’m just so afraid that you would go
That I think of you as I cried in woe
Please tell me that you love me so
For if you do not, it will kill me slow

You know for sure that I will stay
Never will I allow you to go away
Cause I will fight for you all the way
The battle will not end today

Open up your heart and let me in
So that our journey, together we can begin
I’ll bring warmth and happiness from within
My love for you would never, ever dim.

2006-11-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

Be My Pride

Life seems so much sweeter
When you and I get closer
It can’t be any more clearer
That you I hold so dear

The other day do you remember?
When we suddenly start to whisper
And even then I could still hear
Your sweet voice over the receiver

The way you keep tidying up your hair
And fuss about what you wear
But I don’t even care
Just as long as you’re there

You answer the phone that started ringing
At five in the morning
And you hear my voice speaking
Which then repeats in the evening

I just want to be by your side
Everyday till we say goodnight
Don’t you know that you’re my light?
And I want you to be my pride

Some people say you can’t love again
They say it’s because of the pain
But I believe your faith in love you will regain
And that I won’t be waiting in vain

2006-11-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

All I Need Is Your Love

I want your arms around my waist
And see the smile upon your face
Put your hands in mine
Don’t worry darling, we’ll be fine

I’ve never been so intent
Neither have I been so content
With you I’ll spend my whole life
Till the end, I want you as my wife

You give hope to me who have none
Even when you don’t believe in it
With that my heart you’ve already won
It doesn’t mean that I was left in defeat

And when the rain starts to pour
I’ll wrap you in my arms to keep you warm
I’ll do that to you and more
And I will protect you from harm

So that is why you have to stay
And please do not go away
For I’ll do as I say
And not leave you in dismay

All I need is your love

2006-11-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

The Longing Feeling

I don’t know what to say
Or tell you why I felt this way
But I do know that it is true
Without you I am blue

There is a longingness that I crave
Me, only you can save
If you leave I will weep
Without you, I can’t sleep

In my mind, only you I think of
In my sleep, only you I dream of
I look for you when I’m awake
To great measures I will take

Thinking of you makes me restless
When I’m with you I get breathless
If I can’t be with you I’d rather die
Because I love you and that’s not a lie

And it will not be okay if you go
I’ll miss you, just so you know
And if you want to say goodbye
Give me something to remember you by

2006-11-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

Seeking the Answer

Won’t you stay a little longer
So we can still be together
Can’t we be a little closer
And remain this way forever

Your presence soothes my soul
You’re worth more than a pot of gold
So come with me, let the story unfold
Forever, you I want to hold

Won’t you stay a little more
Your faith in love I will restore
Because it is you that I adore
You, I’d gladly die for

I hope you won’t play me
Together with you I want to be
I love you can’t you see?
With no one else I want to be

There’s a reason why
I won’t say goodbye
Because I won’t make you cry
Because I love you, that’s why

Do you have the answer that I seek?

2006-10-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

You’re My Shining Star

Listen to the words I’m gonna say
The promise that I held since that day
I told you that I won’t go away
Here with you I’m gonna stay
That is unless you want me away
Or you yourself went away

You’re so pessimistic
That I can’t speak
You’re so strong yet so weak
You make my future with you look so bleak
But it’s alright, I won’t go ballistic
I think it’s because of your charm and mystic

And also at the same time you are my light
You gave me hope that shines so bright
You take me to dizzying heights
I’m not giving up without a fight
Because I want to be your shining knight

Can I?

2006-10-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

The Perfect Remedy

The you I’ve come to know
It’s what I dreamt of
The you that came to show
Now there’s nothing I could think of

You are the perfect remedy
To my ailment
As everybody can see
You prevented my derailment

The words you spoke
They filled me up, you see
Your laughter, my jokes
Is what makes me happy

The many bubbles
That we blew
They’re like my troubles
Away, they flew

When I look into your eyes
I see joy within myself
A love that never dies
And will never be shelved

I don’t think I can thank you enough
About the things that you weren’t aware of
It’s probably going to get rough
But we’ll make it with love

And the will from up above…

2006-08-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

The Kite

I am a fool
For holding on
Holding onto a string with no kite

But I know I am not a fool
Because if the wind dies
And the kite drops
I want to be the one
To pick it up

And I know I am not a fool
Because if the kite
Were to fly into tree branches
And gets torn
I want to be the one
To get the kite
And mend it

And because I’ve seen
How beautiful it is
When it is in the air…
I keep it.

2006-08-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Because Of You

I’ve not felt this way
In such a long time
Because of you

My heart beats so fast
When I hear your voice
Or when you are near

I cannot breathe
Or speak properly
Because of you

I can’t think of anything else
Other than you
Because I love you

I find it hard to sleep at night
Or wake up from the dreams when I do
Because of you

I can’t fight this feeling
I have to let it all out
To let you know
How much I love you

I’ve been writing so much
And it’s all about one person
That person is you

I keep singing the same song
And even loop it on my player
Because of you

I keep dialing the same number
On my mobile phone
Just so I can talk to you

I wish I’d have the strength
To tell you how I feel
I wish I’d have the courage
To tell you I love you.

2006-08-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

I Only Want To Hear You Say

Everynight I stay awake
It’s you I’m thinking of
You’re on my mind
Every minute of the day
And I miss you
The moment you put down the phone
How can I tell you
That I love you so?

You spoke of another
The one that you were after
And then you said he knew
And tried to keep his distance

I’ve heard it all from you
How you were so excited one moment
And how you were broken the next
How I wish I could
Give a shoulder for you to lean on

I still remember the time
When you mentioned of a crush
A crush that could not develop
Because at that moment, you were taken

You have already known
My feelings for you then
How it could not unfold
It’s because of a friend
When that friend had gone
I thought it was only fair
To claim the hand of the lady
That I’ve fallen so deeply in love with

I can still hear your voice ringing in my ears
When you sang one of your favourite songs
Let me just tell you this
It has became my favourite too

Months had passed
You thought I was over you
But the plain truth is
That you never left my mind
All these pieces I’ve written
Are meant for you and you alone

You asked me why I called
And I said no reason at all
How could I tell you
That all I want
Is to hear your voice?

I really hope that someday
You’ll open your eyes and see
That I’ve always loved you
The moment I set my eyes on you
And I hope that one day
That you’d love me too
I just want to hear you say
“Baby, I love you.”

2006-07-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

My Choice

With the wind blowing in my hair
Here is something I would like to share
There is nothing that I care
Except the one who is lovely & fair

Maybe I was wrong
To go on so strong
To put you in my song
And say I’ve loved you all along

At times you make me cry
The times when you walked on by
About this I won’t lie
To you I will never say goodbye

Forever with you I want to be
Your smile I always want to see
I want to feel your eyes looking at me
To my heart only you hold the key

How I wish that you’d be mine
It’s because you are so fine
I imagined your lips to taste like wine
Everynight I dream of you, it’s almost divine

Each time I hear your voice
In my heart I will rejoice
With your elegance and poise
Indeed you are the ultimate choice

2006-07-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

Must Be Insanity

I held you in my arms
And I was wondering why
It felt like I’ve held you so many times
Even though this is the first time I tried

Could you be the one?
The girl in my dreams
The only one I want
There’s no other it seems

And it feels to me
That you’ll always be on my mind
Because every night when I fall asleep
I will dream of you every time

Why can’t this feeling stop?
It’s making me go crazy
One I might just drop
And surrender to my insanity

I know my sickness has no cure
Therefore I will be forever crazy
Of one thing I am so sure
Crazy in love with you, forever I will be

2006-06-22T19:43:00.000+08:00

Like I Always Do

I close my eyes and all I see is your face
I see the eyes that shine and the lips that smile
I see you walking with style and grace
The things that make me stop and smile

Why I’m around you, I lose my tongue
Your presence leaves me speechless
You’re like oxygen filling my lungs
But when you’re around I remain breathless

I’ve been hungry for your love
Quick, give it to me cos I’m famished
But without blessings from above
I know this love of yours will vanish

I might wait for you till my hair turns gray
Or I could go out and look for another
But never in my life would I cast you away
For in my heart there is no other

Forever I will wait for you
Till the end of the world if I have to

2006-05-27T11:35:00.000+08:00

Always There

You were there for me
When I’m feeling low
When I need you to be
And I knew you wouldn’t go

There were times when I was sad
And some moments when I’m happy
But no matter what feelings I had
I knew you’d be there for me

You’d give me advice
You’d knock some sense into me
But all the time you’re nice
The positives you make me see

You are the light of my life
Shining brightly guiding me
In my life I will strive
Holding my hands, you will lead me

Thank you.
For everything

2006-05-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

Misread

Give me your hand
Can you feel my heart breaking
Do you understand
That it’s the cause of you not loving

Now you may go away
And leave me standing here
But in my heart you’ll always stay
To me you’re still very dear

I’ve thought about it for a while
We could still stay as friends
That I can still see you smile
But I can never hold your hands

Tell me why you don’t want to say hello
Or tell me how you’ve been
I know that you don’t love me so
But I mistook what you mean

As our, or rather, my story ends here
I would like to take the time to thank you
Thanks for the night calls, that was fun, dear
But I realised I have to hang up on you

2006-05-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

Everlasting Night

When the whole world sleeps tonight
I know I’ll be the only one awake
It’s when I hear the stray cats fight
And smell the bread that the bakers bake

But that is not why my eyes are wide open
It’s because of you, the one I’m hoping
Who can mend my heart which is broken
The one I pray, is worth my waiting

Why don’t you be mine
I know we can make things happen
Don’t tell me you’re fine
I know by the look you have given

I know I can set you free
From the grasp of overflowing emotion
But only if you’d be with me
Only then will the wheels be in motion

If you do not take my hand
Forever I’d be left behind
The wheels remain where they stand
And I will still be blind

Blinded by you
Things I cannot see
The ones who love me true
The ones who’ll support me A to Z

2006-05-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Someone To Hold On To

Close your eyes
And lie down in the dark
Can you hear your lies
As clear as the dogs’ bark

Shut your ears
And look through the glass door
See your fears
Stick out like thumbs that are sore

Seal your lips
When you feel like speaking
Cause I don’t want to hear your fibs
Or anything that you might fling

Even with that
I still need you
You are what I want so very bad
I need someone to cling on to

So please don’t go away
I need to hold your hand
I hope you’d try to stay
And that you’d understand

What I’m feeling right now
If you were to leave me
If you were to take a bow
Then I’d be very lonely

And now I’m begging you
To please not leave me alone
That is all I need of you
The you I want to own

2006-05-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

I Don’t Want To Say Goodbye

I can’t sleep at night
And it’s all because of you
So baby won’t you make it right
Make me sleep and dream of you

I can’t bring myself to say goodbye
If you were to ever leave
I’d never allow you to walk on by
Because if I do, I’d forever grieve

Girl, don’t you realise
Just how much you mean to me
And I’m willing to sacrifice
Just about anything for you, baby

But if you want to go
Please don’t say
That this is all just a show
And that it has to end someday

So if you really have to go
Just quietly leave
You don’t have to let me know
Or tell me the story that you weaved

I wouldn’t want to say goodbye
Coz it will bring tears to my eye

2006-04-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

I Can See It In Your Eyes

It was raining all day
And I was standing there alone
Wishing in my heart that you’d stay
And not leave me alone

In your eyes, I can see
The feeling you were trying to hide
So why don’t you tell me
That you want me by your side

I wish that you would call
And check on me every night
I want you to catch me if I fall
And see whether I’m alright

Why don’t you give me a chance
To hold you in my arms
So please let me hold your hands
And bask in your charms

2006-04-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

I Can’t Smile Without You

You bring a smile to my lips
Your soothing voice whispers in my ear
I love your hair with those lovely little clips
Your heart I hold so dear

Every night I would dream of you
In my mind I see you singing for me
I only want my wish to come true
That you’d be the one for me

I want to say what is on my mind
But I am afraid to do so
My heart, the thing that you bind
Tied a knot and it wouldn’t let go

Did you know that I missed you?
Everytime when you’re away
Did you know that I loved you?
Every single night and day

All I can do now is wait
Patiently each day for you
I leave it all to fate
And see if I’m destined for you

2006-04-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

In The Morning

Sometimes in the morning when I’m awake
I think of no one else but you
And every morning I will feel the ache
When I take a look at a photo of you

There are many things that I’d like to say
When you talk to me each day
And that you are so pretty today
And you always blew me away

Every night I will wait
For a message or a call
I wish I could make you my soulmate
Cause’ my mind you enthrall

Your voice soothes me
Everytime I hear you sing
Now I’m just waiting for you to kiss me
And make me feel like a king

I do know now where you stand
A decision you have already made
Don’t worry, I understand
And for you I’ve prayed.

2006-03-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

It’s Time

Is this just an infatuation
A temporary decision?
Are your feelings for real?
Am I getting the real deal?

I’ve loved you for a long time
And it’s about time to make you mine
I’ve waited for quite awhile
And it almost made me senile

I’ve been thinking about you every day & night
Oh I know that you’ve done the same, alright
I still remember the first time we met
A chance I thought I’d never get

Only two weeks earlier
I’d never dream this would happen, dear
Only two weeks earlier
I’d never thought I’d call you dear

I hear your voice every night since then
I look at your picture every time I can
I see your smile every night in my dreams
I’ll hold these moments forever, it seems

Across each other we sit
Waiting for our eyes to meet
And when they finally do
All I want is to make love with you

2006-03-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

Never Had A Chance

Looking into your eyes
I find myself falling
Every time I saw those eyes
I would always be smiling

When I hear your voice
It feels so soothing
I block out all the noise
Just to hear you talking

And every time you smile
It melts my heart away
I’d walk a thousand mile
Just to see you smile today

The way you style your hair
Is just like that in my dream
And the sight of you, so very fair
Is more than enough to make me beam

The thought of dispairing you two
Is almost too strong
Although I would like to do so
But I know it’s so very wrong

So I’ll just have to be content
Looking at you from afar
I guess I’ll have to circumvent,
Missing you from afar.

2006-02-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

Please Say Yes

Have anybody told you that your eyes are pretty?
Have anybody told you that your smile is sweet?
I can’t control myself when you smiled at me
I feel euphoric when our eyes meet.

I’ve watched you for a while
And I’ve waited for quite some time
To realize that it’s all worthwhile
So that is why I’d like to make you mine

I missed you when you are away
Even thought we’ve only met
I hope it stays this way
Because there’s no other chance I’ll get

I want to have your hands in mine
Feel them when you’re in my embrace
I do hope that our feelings entwine
For you, in my heart, there’s a space.

As I sit here waiting for your answer
Please utter the words that I want to hear
You’ve asked me to wait and that I’ll do forever
So please utter the words that will make me cheer

2005-12-25T16:28:00.000+08:00

I'm Sorry It Happened This Way

I came and loved you
And you said you loved me too
Although I know that it's true
But I can't accept you

Have a partner you already do
I know sometimes he makes you blue
And you know why I can't have you
It's because he wants you too

The thing we had, have again we can
Unforetunately, have it now we can't
I know that you don't agree with this plan
But just think that him and I are span

Later on when you look for me
I won't pretend that I didn't see
But one thing you must promise me
Is that you're not bound and are free

So till that event occurs
To this I must concur
You, I won't incur

Till next time then...

2005-12-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

Just One Chance

There was once
When I looked at you
And you looked at me
I continued looking
But you looked away

There was once
When I talked to you
Or at least tried to
But what did you do?
Turn and walked away

You avoided me like a plague
You kept your distance
You walked away when I am in sight
Thinking that I was some kind of disease
That you should stay away from

Every night I think of you
And I couldn't really sleep
I tossed and turned
When I finally sleep
All I dream is you

But you didn't care at all
Much less my well being
My heart shatters at the thought
That you could be so cruel
For not giving me a chance

You flaunt guys in front of me
And you kiss them too
You do that all
And many more too
Just to make me green

You then proceed to dump them
One by one their egos were battered
Except me for whom you did not ditch
Cause I was never with you
But I know the reason too well

You did not want to have me
Cause you did not want to break me
And you did not want your heart to be broken
I know you well enough
To know that your feelings betray you

But can't we try
For who kows
It could be the best thing
That ever happened
Just once, I beg of you.

It's Time To Face The Truth

2005-11-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

It's Time To Face The Truth

My life has changed since I saw you
You make me don't know what to do
You make my nights seemed so long
And my day as if I was in a song

You make my day upside down
Make me smile when I would frown
You make me hope for what mattered
Even now when I'm badly shattered

Now I find you to be happy
I asked myself "Why shouldn't I be?"
The answer was simple as it struck me:
Because you are not here with me

I told myself not to be sad
Being without you isn't that bad
But that is what I can't bear
Cause I can't do anything but stare

When I see you, I tried to smile
And when I see your smile, it's all worthwhile
In your eyes I will look into
And say that I'm happy for you

Now that you've found somebody new
Ignore me you did, and I felt blue
I wanted things to remain the same
The way they were before he came

I wanted to say goodbye when I realised
That there were tears welling in my eyes
To myself I must be true
I can never be with you.

2005-11-25T11:39:00.001+08:00

I Don't Sleep Well Anymore

I don't sleep well anymore
It's all because of you
I've never felt this way before
All I think about is you

I think about you every night and day
And I don't want it any other way
I'm sure you are the one for me
There's nowhere else I'd want to be.

2005-11-25T11:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday Night

Yesterday night
Was a lovely night
The sky was clear
And the stars so bright
When I open my eyes
A full moon greeted my sight
It makes me want to soar
Flap my wings and take flight

I'll hold you in my arms
Trying to work my charms
I'll take you up high
Above the clouds, in the sky
If you won't come I'll cry
If you still refuse I'll die

I want to make you mine
You, whose heart's so kind
Whose lips tastes of wine
And a beautiful mind

When the day is through
All I want to see is you
I will definitely feel blue
When I don't get to see you

I go there each and every week
Trying to kiss you on the cheek
But each and every week
All I get is a kick

2005-11-25T11:38:00.001+08:00

Two Images

Two images
Flickering on and off
Like a rundown projector

Two images
Which would you choose?
The one which scares you
And makes you not do the things that you like?
Or the one that degrades you
Of something that brings shame
Not only to you
But to others around you

Two images
That happened infront of you
And you remembered it exactly how it happened

Two images
How would you deal with them?
Will you banish them to the dungeons of your mind?
Or will you let them be?
To serve as reminders to you
Of what life has brought unto you

Two images
Which would you choose?

2005-11-25T11:38:00.000+08:00

Where Oh Where?

Where are you?
You, who left me alone
Now I have nothing to do
Except to stare at the phone

When will it ring again
Tell me that 'cause I don't know
Waiting for you is such a pain
But I'll still wait for you, don't you know?

You said, "Don't call me."
And that is what I did
But baby can't you see
That you are the one for me?

Dear I miss your voice
And everything that comes with it
But I have no choice
But to bear with it.

I know you'd come back to me
Because you promised me so
But when is it gonna be?
'Cause it's almost time for me to go

And I need you here with me
'Cause soon,
Each other, we're gonna sparsely see....

You Passed Me By

2005-11-25T11:37:00.001+08:00

You Passed Me By

You passed me by
Without so much of a "Hi"
You passed me by
And I don't know what else to do but sigh....

For I know you were taken
About that, I am not mistaken
My love-boat now bore holes and there it lay, sunken
But I can't stop, for too much I have forsaken

My love for you will not waiver
I will wait for you forever
But what chance do I have? Probably never
But every moment of it I enjoy and savour

You passed me by
And I said "Goodbye"
You passed me by
And turned around to smile

The way you smile at me
In my heart it will always be...

2005-11-25T11:36:00.000+08:00

Never Ever

I can still remember
That fateful day in November
When I confessed my love for her
Without even thinking it over
And I found that I was slower
Somebody has already taken her
I felt as if I had been run over
By a trailer

As I stood there in the rain getting colder
I looked over at her
But she wouldn't look back, not even a flicker
Will she love me? Probably never
I am such a sucker
To believe that I'd be her lover
But that all does not matter
What matters is that I love her

2005-11-25T11:35:00.000+08:00

You Will Remain In My Heart

i couldn't do anything
Except stand there and stare into space
Because too much heartache you bring
I'd rather you spit in my face

Tonight I found something out
Something which I really, really hate
And I knew without a doubt
That what I did was too little, too late

Sleepless nights will soon follow
Just like what happened before
I do not know what to do or where to go
I feel shattered to the very core

When I reached out, I grabbed thin air
And then I see myself falling, falling
What I need is for you top care
And hear you call me "Darling"

At times I feel I am chasing the wind
Useless and a waste of energy
To capture the wind, I must be keen
And keen is the best word to describe me

Keen is what I will always be
So that I can have the person I adore
And I will be like the sea
Always chasing the shore

Tonight I walk alone
Hands in pocket and head full of though
All that is lost is gone
And now i will seize every opportunity I got

Immortality you will gain
In my heart you will remain....

2005-11-25T11:34:00.001+08:00

Where Are You?

I've been searching for you
Ever since you left me alone
But I know what I've gotta do
For I truly love you alone

You left without a word
And I was standing there, clueless
With that my heart was seared
For I wasn't prepared to be loveless

I looked for you everywhere
Even at your favourite place
But you were never there
You disappeared without a trace

I don't think I can live till tomorrow
For living without you is something I don't wanna do
I will drown myself in sorrow
I can't think of living without you

And as I was walking home
Hands in pocket and not in your hand
But instead I decided to roam
To where I don't know, maybe in dreamland?

So let me wander in the night
The stars will be my guide....

2005-11-25T11:34:00.000+08:00

I Want You Back

What am I to do
When you said we were through
I will sure feel blue
When I am away from you

And now I am alone again
Living without you is such a pain
Trying to forget you all ends in vain
I feel like slamming my head into a window pane

I remembered the time, when you said goodbye
The moment you said it, I started to cry
It feels as if I'm going to die
For I love you so much and you know that's not a lie

I want to hold you in my arms again
Feel your warmth again

So girl, please come back to me.

2005-11-25T11:33:00.001+08:00

Why oh Why

You never told me you had another
Even when I asked and ponder
Why you treat me like your brother
Is it because of him, I wonder.

So girl will you tell me why
That all this while
You raised my hopes up high
For me to find out its not wothwhile

I must have been a fool
To think you'd love me too
Oh baby I'm such a fool
For I'll never forget you.

You could have brought happiness to me
And drive a way the sadness
But now it doesn't matter to me
For I pray your own happiness

Sometimes, when I'm feeling down
I'll only need to see your smile
And everything will be turned around
A frown will turn to a smile

But alas, I can only see your smile
In my memory it lies till I go senile.

2005-11-25T11:33:00.000+08:00

I'd Love You To Smile

I'd love you to smile
Smile at me again
When I see your smile
It made me live all over again

I'd love you to smile
Something that I have been waiting
Although it took quite awhile
But your smile was exhilirating

I'd love you to smile
And it makes me smile too
Away, even if you were by a mile
Recognize your smile I could do

I'd love you to smile
Although it was a long wait
It was definitely worthwhile
For I no longer need to wait

I'd love you to smile
At me and not some other guy
Although it's not wrong to smile
But I want to be the only guy

So make me yours, as much as I want to make you mine.

2005-11-25T11:32:00.000+08:00

I Wanna Hold Her Hand

Whenever I close my eyes
i see her smiling back at me
Its like the feeling never dies
And why is it happening to me?

When I open my eyes again
i see her standing there
Her smile I have attained
And now, a whiff of her hair

A sweet aroma fills my nose
And I know where it's coming from
Sometimes its jasmine, sometimes its rose
From her hair, the scent came from

Haughty, she seemed at first
But she really is sweet
For her sweetness, I thirst
And her being, I need

I want to hear her voice
Sayin' something nice to me
And then I will rejoice
For to be her guy, she wants me

And please, I wanna hold her hand.

2005-11-25T11:31:00.000+08:00

She Will Be Loved

I want to reach out
And touch your hand
I want to shout out loud
That I love you and you'd understand

When I see you on the street
You smiled at me and I smiled too
And with the first smile you planted the seed
The seed of love, so strong, so true

You seemed like the kind of gal
So strong in mind, so strong in will
Make you mine I shall
Make you mine I will

For darlin' you took my heart away.

2005-11-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

Sick Chic

My heart continues to beat
Even as it is being torn apart
I watched as it bleed
I watched as though it was some kind of art

And I could do nothing
For she took my heart away from me
I thought we could be on to something
But she had other plans for me

Everyday she would make me smile
And everyday she would make me laugh
She does it with some sort of style
That I never thought it was just a bluff

She played with my heart
Tossing it here and there
Like it was some sort of frisbee or a dart
And at last she left it somewhere

Somewhere in the web of deceit
I got lost trying to escape
At last I knelt down in defeat
For I knew that there is no escape

She took my heart and lifted it up high
Only to smash it into the cemented floor
And for a moment I thought I would die
As I lay watching on the floor

But my heart continues to beat
And I knew I wasn't dead
And only now I can soundly sleep
And to myself I said;

"Goodbye sick chic. I won't miss you."

2005-11-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm......

What is this aching?
In my heart it has always been
What is this aching?
Is it the work of something which cannot be seen?

It cries
It bleeds
It dies
But the heart still beats

Memories flashed
Like a run-down projector
Thoughts dashed
As I become a regrettor

Regret upon the things I should do
And the things that I shouldn't
Time; something I wish I could undo
But alas, I couldn't

As I stand there
And stare into space
The gap between me and her
Would be like outer space

Or maybe I didn't take my chances
Fear of rejection always on my mind
Well there won't be any second chances
She's gone, and I can never say "She's Mine"

And as light reaches my eyes
I shook off the blasts from the past
As I raise a hand to dry my eyes
I hoped that I would find a love that will last

2005-11-25T11:27:00.000+08:00

What I Do When I See You

Sometimes you walked by
Without noticing me
But I always noticed that you passed by
And I shouted, "Suriyani!"

And you will turn around
To see who it is
That shouted like a hound
And you don't seem to care about this

I waved at you
And you waved too
And then you continue
To do what you were supposed to do

That is what we do everytime
When I see you
Because you seemed so sublime
And I am shy too

At least I know your name
And also where you stay
You don't even know my name
Much less where I stay

I want to tell you someday
My feelings for you,
Where I stay,
And of course, my name too.

2005-11-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

Missing

I miss the way you talk
I miss the way you walk
I miss the way you smile
Something I could see for a mile
Something I knew I could never have....

2005-06-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

A Picture Of You

I’ve been keeping to myself since you were gone
Because I keep seeing your face everywhere I go
It’s never been the same, like watching movies without popcorn
I hate this feeling, it kills me slow

Everytime I turn on my computer
I will look at your photo
If it’s not for my spoilt printer
I would stick your photo on my bedroom window

Every other night I would dream of you
Each dream so wonderful, so nice
All the time I wish it will come true
The back of my mind the memory of you lies

I stand here without you
Wishing that you’d be mine
I know the wish won’t come true
But, just so you know, you’re the first in line